Wo Bu Zai Pa 我不再怕 - Lara 梁心颐

分手快一年了
頭髮剪短了
手機也換了新號碼
現在的我不太一樣

我不再怕
少了你的晚餐
少了你溫度的小毛毯
現在的我有長大 有長大

雖然想起你心還是會揪
雖然深夜並沒那麼好過
勇敢是我對自己的承諾
再想念也不能回頭
一直不敢去面對的寂寞
習慣就好也沒那麼難受
也許我該謝謝你離開我
讓我找到真正的自由

翻著我的日記
從分手的那頁
到晚上睡前寫的心情
我的筆畫慢慢堅定
我才領悟
曾害怕的食物
像開車或對付一隻小蟲
不知不覺變得輕鬆

雖然想起你心還是會揪
雖然深夜並沒那麼好過
勇敢是我對自己的承諾
再想念也不會回頭

一直不敢去面對的寂寞
習慣就好也沒那麼難受
其實我該謝謝你離開我
讓我找到真正的自由

雖然想起你心還是會揪
雖然深夜並沒那麼好過
勇敢是我對自己的承諾
再想念也不會回頭

當我發覺再恐慌的寂寞
現在我都能平靜的度過
才明白雖然是你離開我
是我得到真正的自由
我真正的自由

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We've broken up for almost a year
I have a new haircut
I have a new cell phone number
I've changed

I'm no longer afraid
of having dinner without you
of your absence on the small fur rug
I've grown up, grown up a little

Even though my heart still hurts when I think of you
Even though it's hard to bear when it's the dead of night
I promised myself to be brave
I won't turn back no matter how much I miss you

The loneliness that I've never dared to face
I'll just live with it, it'll gradually get better
Maybe, I should be thankful for your leaving me
For letting me find my freedom

Paging through my diary
to the day we broke up
and all my feelings that I wrote in before I went to bed
Through my entries, I can see that I've grown stronger
I just realized
I've slowly conquered the things that I've once feared
like driving or dealing with a bug

Even though my heart still hurts when I think of you
Even though it's hard to bear when it's the dead of night
I promised myself to be brave
I won't turn back no matter how much I miss you

The loneliness that I've never dared to deal with
I'll just live with it, it'll gradually get better
Maybe, I should be thankful for your leaving me
For letting me find my freedom

When I know that I can weather the frightfully lonely days
And still come out strong
I realize that even though it was you who left me behind
It is me that has been set free
I'm truly free